Saturday, April 28, 2012

Seth's Vasectomy

The truth about how I feel:
This will be a semi ramble, but I wanted to get my thoughts down (it helps/it's therapeutic):

We knew going into our marriage that we wanted to adopt.  The truth is we wanted to adopt first before having our own because we were so scared that once we had our own that we would get so "into them" that we would push adoption to the side.  I know so many people who say they want to adopt but I know so few who actually do.
The neat thing is that every time I have a newborn I get soooo into adopting.  You would think that I would get just really into the new baby and this would be the biggest time that I wouldn't think about adoption, but it's not. Side story: I remember when SJ was a little tiny baby and I was nursing her on the Boppy looking up online adoption things, haha.  Seth would come home and look at me all crazy and say, "what? you JUST had a baby, she is literally sucking on your boobie right NOW!!" :)  We looked into the costs and rules and regulations and got discouraged because we knew it wasn't our time.  However, we felt like God was telling us to keep having babes through our belly.  So we were obedient again, and again, and again!  However with Olive being a newborn this was the first time that I didn't get super into adoption.  I don't think I could look past the sorrow of not bearing another baby.  It's not that I forgot about adopting, I was just kinda a "nay sayer" about it.

All along, I have been so so excited about the whole process and Seth has been excited too but he honestly could take it or leave it.  Which sorta discouraged me, I mean adopting a child is a BIG DEAL!!  and I want it to be a fun journey that we both love and experience together (things are better when your partner is pumped and excited too!).  We loved and experienced pregnancies together so I knew how that would go, but I didn't think he was ever going to get excited about adoption. This was one of my concerns for Mr. Megow getting snipped.  I knew I wanted more babies and what if he never got super into the adoption with me, would I really be able to do all this on my own and enjoy it, it's a costly thing and without his support how could *I* do it.  If he didn't get fixed then I could still hold onto some hope that we may get pregnant again later on (I know I know, it's not medically sound for me to get pregnant again, but my family didn't feel complete, what to do what to do?).  Don't get me wrong I was still faithful in the confirmation that the Lord would provide, but my Spirit was getting tired and weak.
This past week I have not been sleeping well, with Seth's parents moving, us moving and Seth getting snipped it has been a lot to process.  I am very honest when I tell you that I begged Seth to not get fixed!  AND that I did not even sign the consent form, I just couldn't.  Seth had to forge my signature (I hope Dr Chang is not on here, ha!).
However, our good Lord knows me so well that He knew the right words to put into Seth's mouth to speak to my heart and Spirit, thank you Jesus!!  Seth called from the doctor's office before going back (down to the last minute here people), in truth I may have called him telling him he had one last chance to turn back, haha!  He then said,

"Babe, I know you want more kids and medically you just cannot anytime soon, but you know what, I am really excited about adopting our kids!  All those 17 kids you want are up in Heaven they are already there and you WILL meet them some day when we get there, but for now, there are already kids here in the world that NEED us, and we NEED them! We are commanded in God's Word to take care of widows and orphans! I am actually really excited about all this!"

Immediately my anxiousness, pain, and sorrow left me!  

I was so so incredibly happy, hopeful, and giddy!  Seth was finally on board the way I was!!!!!!!!  It was so weird, like it took me to get "down" about adopting to get "up" in it :)
I have a very intense immediate kind of Spirit (hello, remember how Seth and I kissed one time, felt the Lord and got engaged 10 hours later!!!). It's how I roll, it's how God made me.  He always shows up in His perfect timing.
So, I do feel peace.  I feel that we have made the right decision in Seth's snippage.  In a way, we feel like this is our first step towards our adoption process and our next babies.  Before, I felt like after Seth's surgery that I would feel so much pain and feel like I had lost a child (I know that sounds weird, but it's how I felt). 
But the great news is that I don't!  I feel refreshed and on fire more than ever!!  Amen!  Before, I felt like that I would never experience pregnancy again and all the joys that go along with it.  But now I know that I WILL! However, it will be a different kind of "pregnancy".  Still a sacrifice, still a wait, still a complete giving of your heart, still a waiting on our child to come to us and join our crazy family,  and very much still a relying fully on the Lord!
We still do not know where we will adopt from (domestic/international/private/foster), but that confirmation will come too, in His time, He has been faithful before and He will be faithful again!!!
Seth is in a lot of pain, bless his big 'ol sweet heart!  I didn't even know I could love him more than I already did, but I DO!!  I fall more and more in love with him daily (cliche, I know,,but it's true!).  I trust him and will not doubt the God I know in him!  
We are now finally truthfully excited about the next season in our lives.  
Oh sweet Jesus, let them sing the Shackles off my feet so I can dance song tomorrow at church, I will be so cRuNk!!!!

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Multi-tasking Moms Unite!

Since becoming a mommy, my multi-tasking skills have gotten so much better (still not so great while cooking though, but better) ;)  I use to be so terrible at multi-tasking!  
Becoming a mommy, especially to multiple children running around, has helped sharpen that skill!

Exhibit A: washing my hair outside while the kids play in the pool, my hair was getting greasy and I knew I had to work the next day (or I probably wouldn't even care, ugh, dirty hippie!)

I even got a chance to do my "3 minute miracle" by Aussie!
psh, they don't give a crap what I do when they are in their pool, I could run to Valdosta and back and they would probably never notice, ha! (I totally would NEVER EVER do that though, do not call DFCS!)

Exhibit B:  When I need to make phone calls, I ride everyone around on the golf cart while talking, for some reason riding on the golf cart puts my kids in like a "trance" and they are sooo quiet!  This helps me to talk in peace!
Exhibit C:  Here's how I wind everyone down at the end of the day
I love that we have an over sized recliner so that all the kids can sit with me at the same time

well,,,,almost all the kids, hahaha!
 even when she was a baby, she never really liked to be held very much while watching tv?  often times, the whole family is cuddling on the couch and she is down on the floor? silly girl

this girl LOVES tv!!  alllll day long she asks me to watch it!
 I think her dream day would be a movie marathon!

I am pretty much the queen of "killing two birds with one stone" :)
I am pretty time oriented, my love language actually is quality time.
I try really hard to make the most of my time.  

And Exhibit D:  throw in a little multi-tasking with this blog entry and brag on my little Neela's hair! Seriously, look at this head of hair, it's beautiful! And this is straight out of the pool and I didn't even brush it, it just dried like this!  Sister has some pretty locks :)

What are some good multi-tasking tips you guys have?


Our Kids are Hilarious!

I love all the little funny hilarious things are kiddos say.
It totally keeps the house interesting!!
Here are a few recent ones:

Stevie: "Mommy, when I grow up like you I am going to be fat."
Neela: "Yeah, SO fat!"


Neela:  "Mommy, I need some brownies because I have the hiccups!!"


(okay, this one I said, but it pertains to Titus so it counts hee hee)

Me:  "Titus, please get your cheese toast out of the bath tub"


Stevie:  "Mama, pull this car over and spank Neela!!!!!


This following is a bad one, Stevie Joy said her first "bad word"

Stevie:  "I am pissed at the cats!"

When we asked her where she heard this word (we were waiting for her to say me or Seth, but instead she said, "Neela taught me this word!!") seriously!? :)


The other day, we told Neela it was nap time, she looked at us very confused and said in her super cute valley girl/dingy/but-deep-like-a-man-at-the-same-time- voice and said,

 "I so tired????" she is so clueless sometimes!


I did a front flip on the trampoline and stevie was amazed!  she said
Stevie:  wow, when I get big I am SO going to do that!!!

Our kids bless us in so many ways!  I love having a big family! The other day I was telling Seth that I didn't think a certain friend of ours liked kids very much (we'll call him Mr. "X") and his response was, "WHAT!? why they are HILARIOUS!!!!"  I feel the same way.  Before we had kids of our own we were always baby sitting for our church families and we even worked at our church's school for a while.  Kids are the bomb!  I am very excited to add more kids to our fUnNy family through adoption in the Lord's perfect timing!! :)

Random pic for fun:

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Strawberry Patch

The other day we went and visited our local strawberry patch.

The girls fell asleep in the car on the way there (they often do this when they don't nap that day, it annoys me, but it's what they do, ha)

Wake up sleepy heads we're here!:

Ready to pick some berries:

Stevie Joy asked if we could eat McDonalds for dinner after the patch, and we told her only if she wears this fry costume, we were mostly kidding (it was super hot out), but she took us seriously ;)

Posing with the strawberry man:
Stevie and (guess, Neela or Titus????) (answer: Titus)

Me and Tee Tee

Baby Rocket chilling in her stroller, ready to punch someone with those fists, ha!

My good friend, Liz, french braided my hair and it lasted soooo for days, love braids!

He's really into sunglasses these days

picking some strawberries, I love how SJ is using her pumpkin bucket as her basket

I uploaded these pics to facebook and tagged the farm and this is the pic they chose to use as their profile pic for their facebook page, what a compliment :)

What he did the whole time, ran down the rows

little snack

Poor baby, I know she had to be hot, but she didn't understand our joke and was dead set on wearing that thing until she got her some McDonalds!!

So Neela was starting to act grumpy and we were just thinking it was due to the short nap in the car, she did keep saying her tummy hurt, but she says this a lot, typically so that she can go lay down in bed and *hopefully* I will give in and put on a movie for her in her room, it rarely rarely happens, but she's hopeful, ha!

looking back at these pics I guess I was an idiot, you can totally tell home girl has to poop!!

Seth and I

super chilled baby!

paying for our yummy delicious berries

Pretty successful, fun trip,,until,,,,
we get to the car and as Seth is buckling up Neela he realizes that she has pooped EVERYWHERE!!! OMG, every fruit fly in the whole patch found us!!  The car was filled with them, poop was all over the place (sopped, {like the word Ems}, through her clothes), Rocket is over it by now and is screaming, and it's hot really hot!!!  Seth runs and grabs a wal-mart bag from inside and we clean her up and get through it.  Seth was dying laughing the whole time, but I wasn't really to that point yet, ha!

Since Stevie was true to her word and wore her costume the whole time, we had  to still go eat at McDonalds!!  Thankfully, we found some bloomers in the car and Neela just had to wear her shirt as a dress, ha!

The McDonalds Mascot:

We had a blast, it was definitely an adventure, but with 4 kiddos 4 years of age and under what isn't an adventure? hahaha :)


Thursday, April 19, 2012

Wedding Weekend

This past weekend we had the privilege of going to Atlanta and being a part of an amazing wedding for some dear friends of ours (Will and Erinn).  Seth and Will grew up together since they were both babies.  Will asked Seth to be a groomsmen and we have been looking forward to this wedding for a long time!!!

We left Friday morning and just let me tell ya it was cRaZy getting everyone packed up and out of here!!  
It was all totally worth it though :)

We arrived in just the knick of time Friday afternoon for the rehearsal (like, we were the last ones to show up, we got lost and didn't factor in Atlanta traffic, ooops!).

After the rehearsal, we rushed over to our hotel to check in and change clothes then rushed back over to the rehearsal dinner and again were the last ones there :-/  BUT this was the last thing we were late to an event for the whole weekend (we both hate being late to things).

The rehearsal dinner was A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!!!
It was so funny because I asked the lady sitting next to me, Jennifer, to take this pic of Seth, Olive and I and when she was done she said, "You probably want me to take it again!".  Hahaha, I am totally use to all of our family being in the pic where the rule is "if we are all seen in the pic it's a good pic" ha! I totally have no high expectations for any picture being taken of us anymore, so I guess that's why I thought this was a good pic of us.

There were a couple of toasts and speeches
I always love when my man gets up and entertains, he told some great stories of him and Will growing up

After the rehearsal, we went back to the hotel and Seth helped me get settled in with Rocket and then he went out with the boys to PARTAY for the bachelor party :)
So I got to co-sleep with my sweet little babe 
Just her and I in the huge, comfy king size bed!!

The next day we slept in (well til like 9:00, but still that's legit!) and then hit up the complimentary breakfast.  We hung around for a little while then Olive and Seth took a nap and I went down stairs and laid out for a little while,,,and I got my tan on :)

I came back up in time to feed Olive and take a few pics of her  (the lighting was so pretty) 

I never get tired of taking pics of my little Olive!

Seth tie dyed this little blankie for her a few days ago, it's so pretty!

I am in LOVE with this shot of her!!

I love her little eye brows and her cheekies :)

 okay, okay back to the point ;)

Then ~wedding time~
We got ready and headed over 
We had no clue how the traffic would be and since we were so late to everything the day before we were determined to not be late anymore.
Since we got there early, we walked around the pretty garden and did a little sight seeing and of course some picture taking :)

Seth took lots of pictures with the groomsmen and Olive and I enjoyed each other and meeting new people.

Then came the big moment and Erinn looked AMAZING!!
This was such a dream wedding everything was so perfect:

The reception was so so so much fun!
We really did party the night away!
The band was SO cool!
Olive slept in the sling for a loooong time.  It was funny to me because one guy said, "Man, you have the best party baby, she is so chilled!"
Another funny thing about this reception, was that a lot of young men were interested in my decision to breast feed my child? what? I didn't even know guys cared about this???

We had a great time!  It really warmed my heart to see two amazing families come together.  Everyone that we met was very super friendly and we met a lot of new friends.  People probably thought that I was super drunk, but I wasn't, DUH Olive is nursing,,,I just hardly ever get out without all my kids!  Hahaha, so I was super happy and crunk :)

We were able to stay to til the end (which rarely ever happens), and saw the bride and groom off with glow sticks (super fun!).  And one last surprise was an ice cream truck at the end of the reception where the bride and groom climbed in and handed out ice cream cones to all the guests that were still there, how cute!  

The whole weekend was a lot of fun and we are so incredibly thankful for everyone that made it possible for us to be able to go!!